faint annoyance.

That same close fren, has told me more stuff that made me do some deeper thinking.

"If you love and care about the person, you would be motivated to want to go correct that person's faults."

"You (myself, Alex) are generally good natured, but there are some stuff you cannot tolerate, and stand strong on what you think is right or wrong."

I seem to be on a rolling streak, getting pissed at a few people close to me over this weekend.

Close friends, they are supposed to be there for you, wake you up when you are falling into a pit, say things with frankness that may not be nice but necessary. But as close friends, would it be a special privilege or being allowed to be insensitive, or just plain taking advantage of, or that one will always drop everything just for the other?

I have been thinking of what constitutes as a best friend. Would it be the same as being in a relationship with the opposite sex? For what I feel, it would be some sort like being in a relationship, minus the physical intimacy, that anything the friend says or does would invariably affect the other person.

But the problem is, is whether they are able to think it the same way?

nature vs nurture.

Genetic make up or external influence? I'd say its a combination of both, but weighing more on external influence.

The basis of your character is first moulded by the ones that cared for you since young, your parents. I cannot claim to have had the best parenting, but is there a guide or rules pertaining to what proper parenting is? Perhaps the end product is the best way to judge.

I have been doing some thinking on this. There has to be basic discipline taught and meted out when the child is young. But as the child grows older into adulthood, where he is more mature and knows a little of society and how it works, is it right to still threaten him with monetary means, a roof over their heads, and demanding filial piety?

Wouldn't a child experiencing all these grow up with a sense of resentment?

Well, I would.

untitled.

A friend told me, "When someone is in love with you, you will be surprised what that person would do just for you."

That got me pondering, how love is that amazing. I had observed from a third person's point of view, what love can drive a person to become, be it for the better or worse.

Even now, I'm still being surprised every time.

Thank you for loving me.

feeling the heat.

I feel so relieved now that I have completed and sent in all my scholarship applications. As usual I procrastinated over the application and left it to the last minute such that I kinda neglected someone over the last two weeks of march.

I was under the intense time pressure as I struggled to produce quality work that was, and still is, evading me for the last two years of my life. Now I'm just crossing my fingers that I'll get that interview.

Speaking of the heat, I cannot believe how warm the office is becoming recently. With the remote control in safely in the aunties' clutches, the office temperature is set at around "Alex starts to perspire" degrees Celsius.

They are perpetually afraid of the cold that they actually drape scarves or wear jackets for the whole day. At first, I thought it was only me, but it turns out, both zw and jinggy were feeling very warm too.

I wish I could unleash a Boggart in the office and low, and behold, it would turn into freezing weather, causing panic to the masses. Unless the Boggart attacks me, and turn into paradise for the aunties, the Sahara Desert.

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you will never know wad will happen in your life.

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quotations.

I must be getting bored by work, as I am having more mental monologues with myself these few days. Perhaps this is partly because I'm planning for my 21th birthday celebrations, and being stunned by the quotations sent over by the various hotels for their buffet high tea/dinner.

I have only invited those very close frens to my celebration, and its no easy task leaving out some of my frens. But in this world as it is now, the costs of the celebration is my priority.

I know this is random, but I saw this quote from those spammers flooding msn promoting their porn/dating/enhancement websites that I found quite interesting.

"They say it is the soul that captures the heart of a woman, but it is the looks that first captures the eyes of one." And they go on about wanting to date you for your hot looks.

Well, at least now we know that spammers also put in effort in their work.

being happy with who you are.

Lets face it, everyone has their own issues. I have been doing my usual mental monologue with myself about this issue about issues.

I read somewhere this quote somewhere before that I found to be quite true. "Most guys have more issues/personal problems than they look". It set me thinking about myself, about how I appear to the people around me, about the kind of impression I make to them.

It also set me thinking about some of the guys that I know more personally, and I find it to be quite true too. I'm not a MCP but I feel that guys have that ability to shut out such stuff completely at times so that they can continue with their lives and daily interactions with people.

During work, I usually whip out my iPod so that I wont fall asleep. The best songs that accompany me, as it has been for over 5years, are the songs from X Japan, with X on Piano in particular. I've always been letting people listen to songs from X, trying to get them hooked onto X. Now I bring you their latest song, IV.



In loving memory of Hide.

I just love Yoshiki on his trademark transparent piano. Beautiful.

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